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comission [May. 27th, 2006|01:59 am]
My 12 year old brother just asked me to do him a favor in all seriousness. To get inside the head of our moms new boyfriend. I'm fucking 21 now.

Analysis. Inevitably judgment. Hes playing vid games and i'm printing philosophy. I'tl take more than a once and for all conversation. For this guys psyc set, it's gonna take a natural lock crack method. No science, no training, just skill. Strait twist feel, listen, and again. What i'm best at. That shit is for TV. I'll do it. Why? Not even because I love him... I don't even think I do. Because I wan't him to look up to me. I want in some way my pointless existence to be validated by the beholder. Because no matter how much I can soul search and "find myself" no one can tell me more about myself than that 12 year old fuck.
My mentality is based on the thought that all transaction, this or not, are based on self interest. I dont think thats unhealthy, it's realistic.
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congestion, frustration, love hate, relation. equation. [May. 27th, 2006|01:26 am]
Behold a universe shat out a sun burnt fetus
Please God Jesus, the Moon can't believe this

Leave this, place. Crawl step walk hast.
Moving incongruently with time lines succeeds
manipulates. Trans migrates. Space. Fabric
gesticulates. Flick of the wrist precipitates.
Love hate. Emotionally disinclined. Harmonically,
intertwined. Mind transcend body and soul. I lefted
you in the, hole. Pealed tires spat exhaust fire, smoke.
Cylinder stroke. Full throttle, choke. Feel me don't.
Wouldnt wont.

This is a love and hate relationship that fled lips
and dared not venture, hips. Waist. Motion. Vibrates friction.
Pointless ness addiction. Or victim of like conviction?
Question the congestion i'm experiencing.
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cele [May. 20th, 2006|06:41 pm]
turned 21 recently. got sick. am ill. choppy waters. still moving. dog died, no shit. still fucking sick. a month now. party tonight, moms. passed out twice last time. woke up in my own bed naked. hope no one got fucked. dont remember. that would be upsetting. not having sex makes me who i am. crutch. identity. path. life.
one hour till people show up, staggering already, well slightly. but i look good. out the shave and shower. entertaining thoughts of fucking with the heads of some legal secretary chi...pardon me WOMeN. back in like 3 months or so. all vagrant and shit.
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Diverge [Apr. 5th, 2006|10:27 pm]
Contenintal Drift.
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To the ones that listened. [Mar. 29th, 2006|12:40 am]
There are things I need to figure out. Things I need to talk to myself about. Some things may be Grim. I'm going to use this journal. Please don't comment unless you find the restraint taxing. Why then leave it possible for you to do so, if otherwise wished? Curious to know what could possibly be said to a man on the edge. Perverse pleasure.

Now. Lets see about getting these windows tinted.

(no subject) [Feb. 13th, 2006|12:03 pm]
Green is your Lightsaber's color.

Green is the color of nature. It symbolizes growth,

harmony, and freshness. Green has strong

emotional correspondence with safety. Green

is also commonly associated with wealth and

happiness, so someone with a green lightsaber

like yourself is a fortunate soul.

What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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Life. [Feb. 6th, 2006|02:38 am]
The clock tower tolls LIFE, and I've my will to survive. Running from the light. Chasing me down darkening hallway. How I trip and falling into the sunlight. These are the flavors of a madman. Mercurial. Formless. In a constant stats of evolution. Birth and destruction infused into one fluid? motion. Life.
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LifeMatter. [Feb. 5th, 2006|05:46 pm]
Blood spilt from the lips of a madman biting his tongue because the truth makes you feel alive. Hit speed bumps with thumb tacks in the seat.

Burglars wear attire whose fabric molecular structure is conducive to stealth.

Stealth, the fashion by which I crept into your minds.

Minds, that forget the manifestations of the past in experience.

Experience, that sensation achieved when combined with learning.

Learning, in association with knowing.

I am the lettering in your scriptures.

Scriptures, you read yet disbelieve in silence.

Silence, the crescendoing chorus of voices.

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I command thou. Return hence with thy finding. [Feb. 2nd, 2006|11:16 pm]
You scored as Otherkin. You are Otherkin. You identify with otherworldy beings and feel you are truly something other than human. You are only biding your time here until you can return to where you truly belong. You seek others who share your yearnings and spend your time commiserating with those you like and mocking the ones you don't.








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I love this movie. [Jan. 31st, 2006|01:33 am]
I seem to have developed an infatuation with Maggie, Hilary Swank's character in the 2004 film Million Dollar Baby. Too bad for me.
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Im so rockin this for the next few months. [Jan. 29th, 2006|07:47 pm]
The Outlaw
- You Are The Outlaw

"Sure, I'll do it. My


Just because you do not conform to the same laws

and rules as everyone else does not mean that

you are a bad guy. You travel your own path,

separate from those around you, with your own

reasons for doing what you do. Because of

this and your own nature, it goes without

saying that you are generally misunderstood.

That does not matter much, though, as people

love you for being who you are. You are

pretty well set in your ways and have no real

intention of changing. This can come across

as a flicker of arrogance if your not

careful. You do what is right for you, and

God help anyone who stands in your way.

Which Classic Story Role Do You Play?
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